Letting Go by Kara

Letting Go by Kara - April 2014 Scholarship Essay

Mia was a teenager in high school who just wanted to have fun. She loved her family, her friends and her music. One snowy day when her family was taking a day trip, they got into a terrible car accident. Then Mia woke up from what she thought was a dream, but now in a hospital bed. Her whole family is dead and she has a decision to make. Her life is on the line and this one decision can literally make or break her life. Will she go back to life that she is now confused about? Will she leave her life behind to not deal with the troubles?

Just like Mia, I too struggle at times. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know where I belong. I have some amazing friends who will do anything for me, but I still feel like part of me is empty. I honestly think something's wrong me. I can't seem to realize why I keep feeling so down. I want to be this big ball of energy that everyone loves and adores and someone who I love and adore. Yet I feel like I'm almost there, in the middle and lost. I don't need to a boy to make me happy, but I feel lonely. I don't need money to make me happy, but I feel like new clothes make me feel better as a person. Is it possible to feel so uncomfortable in your own body that you wish you could surgically fix the parts that you don't like? I just feel like my puzzle is almost complete, but I'm missing a few important pieces.
I know that I’m still young and that I shouldn't be thinking about such futuristic thoughts, but these are the thoughts that I deal with every day. I want to be like other girls who live exuberant lives. I want to enjoy the fresh air and have no worries. I want to be the best person that I can be and who is also more confident and less doubtful and happy and except the way that I am because I was made in Gods image and should be grateful.

With that saying, Mia has helped me realize how we should all focus on the things that truly matter. We should stop worrying about the materialistic things and more on things that will make us happy. She thought long and hard about the decision that she was going to make and it ended up being the best decision of her life. Mia decided to live her life and that’s exactly what I’m going to do.