Maybe I'll do it tomorrow by Brianna

Maybe I'll do it tomorrow by Brianna - January 2016 Scholarship Essay

"Well I guess I need to write this essay...but maybe I will just do it later. Yeah that sounds good! There is no need to worry about it the deadline is… just days away. I got plenty of time." Procrastination is my hamartia. It fills my every vain, my every vessel until I lose my willpower and give in. It is a manifestation of my laziness and my lack of motivation but this year it stops. My New Year’s resolution for 2016 is to stop… or I might just wait for 2017. No! No! My 2016 resolution is to stop procrastinating.

I cannot seem to break this grip. I have all the best intentions to get a head start or complete something in time but then it happens. I feel reluctant, a powerful urge to put it off. I get this strange ball in the center of my chest and excuses start overtaking my thoughts. I then cannot possibly think clearly with my inner self saying things like “It is alright to watch one more episode.” Or “It is not due until Friday, just do it tomorrow.” My entire existence seems to be working against me except my brain shines a light through the storm. When all else fails, my logic, foundations, and goals must help me rise above this serpent. I am a person who works hard and earns what I get not one that floats by and does not care anymore. Yield! Procrastination because you will not restrain me any longer. I will break these heavy chains and flee from your duplicitous paradise. I am determined to be a better student, a better person this year.

I must conquer this obstacle before I enter college. I need to start my independent, “real” life on a better foot. I plan on planning ahead and completing tasks ahead of time. If a paper is due in a few days then I will do it as soon as possible. There are no excuses in life so why should there be in education. I have high standards for myself including the status of my grades and grade point average. I want to see it and know, even if it is good or bad, that I tried my hardest. So that I can claim I gave it all I had instead of being lazy and procrastinating.

I do not want to wear the scarlet letter of procrastination. I do not want to be marked and tarnished by something so demeaning. I do not want to look back and say well maybe I should have been on top of things. No, I want to look back and say I was on top of things. I owned that essay or that assignment. I want to be able to say I took my education seriously and indulged myself in it. So 01-01-16 does not just mark the New Year. It marks the destruction of that grip procrastination holds on me. It marks the start of being the student I want to be and should to be.