The Night Owl How Turns into a Early Bird by Tiana

The Night Owl How Turns into a Early Bird by Tiana - January 2019 Scholarship Essay

As a child we are taught that bed times are good for you and if you do get enough rest then you'll wake up rejuvenated and ready for the day. As we get older this is a lesson we tend not to forget and try very hard to fallow, in fact when we have kids we try to teach them the same concept. This is a wonderful concept to try to fallow in life. However, life is hard and living life and going to bed to wake up early isn’t always easy.
A while ago I got my heart broken and it was the first heart break of my adult life. I was a mess, broken lost and full of anxiety. So much so that I would wake up in the middle of my sleep crying and suffering from anxiety attacks and then for the rest of the night I would be up like a night owl. I was in bed by 11:00 pm and back up at 3-4:00 am feeling like I was going to die. This was not ok seeing how I also work full time as well as go to school full time. Thankfully I am a believer of God and I truly believe that a person's mind frame can change that person’s life. So I started praying and listening to motivation and church sermons every time I woke up feeling like I was going to die from a broken heart.

I live by myself so I had to learn that I had to do something to pull me out of depression, I had to find other tools and technique other than western medicine. As I would listen motivation music or sermons, I would either color or think/write down more riddles for a children’s book I am going to get publish someday. This would continue until it was actually time to get dress for work and school. At first this was a way of coping. Now it is a way of my life. I learned during the time I would wake up in the middle of the night to color and to come up with riddles, that there are a lot of time and things to do to get over a heart break or to even stop being lazy. I am one single woman who closing loans in the mortgage industry by day, workout queen by evening, excellent student by night, and an inspiring children's book author by 3:00 am and an aspiring doctor in the psychology field.

The prompt to this essay is "Are you a morning person or a night owl? Why are you most productive at this time?" But I am here to tell you I am a night owl, an early bird and superwoman all in one!! If you are worried about my lack of sleep, please don't be worried because unlike most people, I am one of the lucky ones who gets to sleep in a catch up on rest on the weekends. But until the weekend comes, I work very hard as a closer for the mortgage industry who still get her homework down during work hours. I continue to push myself because without a push, how am I ever supposed to know my true potential

Writing this essay brings tears to my eyes because its' just another way of assuring me that I am indeed on the right path and I pray every day that God will continue to open doors for me. I've been resting and missing opportunities like this for far too long. I am not just doing all of this because it’s something to do, I do it because I want to and I am hungry for it. I want to become doctor who has is also a children's author. I want God to use me in every way he can and it that mean utilizing my time for productive purposes night or day, well count me in. Because I'm going to be and doing something great someday. If you could help me lay down this foundation by blessing me with this grant, I would be forever thankful.