Struggle to Motivation by Sydney

Struggle to Motivation by Sydney - August 2023 Scholarship Essay

When I look back on my past years in school, I have felt a lot of regret about the amount of effort I put into my classes. My whole academic career I have been a straight A and B student which to most people would seem like an achievement, but I do not exactly see it that way. I know my potential and I know that I could have done so much more in the past. A part of me feels like I do not deserve my achievements or to succeed so it is hard for me to decide what my biggest achievement would be.

I recently finished my first year of college and I really struggled staying focused on my assignments so when I found out I got on the dean’s list my first quarter, I was surprised. It made me happy that besides my tough times in my classes I was able to pull through and get the grades that I wanted. I am very thankful to have such understanding professors who were kind enough to let me work on things right up until the last second. They are the reason I want to work harder and truly earn that type of acknowledgement because without them I would have failed.

For a while I did not know if what I was doing was something I genuinely wanted to do. When I ask people why they want to study their major they always seem so passionate and motivated. I envied them because I did not have that motivation or that moment of realization that I had passion toward my major. A couple of months ago I decided to change my major from accounting to education and it was the best decision I have made. I feel like I have truly found my purpose and it makes me so excited for this upcoming quarter. Because of this newfound motivation I feel like I have the strength to reach my full potential and put all my effort into my work. I may have some achievements now, but I am excited to see what I can achieve soon.