Just jump off the diving board by Micah

Just jump off the diving board by Micah - December 2022 Scholarship Essay

My mind seemed to have culminated in a revolutionary war that had been lasting for the last hour. Half of me wanted to enjoy the excitement of rushing into the water and causing a humongous splash. However, the other side was scared of what looked to be thousands of miles between the monstrous diving board and treacherous waters in the pool. Each side shot bullets of knowledge that seemed to break down each other.
Now the civil war inside was turning into a world war since my mother had convinced me to at least stand on the diving board. The fearless Americans in my head kept saying “It will be fun!” and at the same time the fearful England side led by King George worried by saying, “It looks so big! It looks so scary to jump! What if I fall? What if I get hurt? What if? What if……”
Finally the great arbitrator of all, my mother, decided the fearless side would win as she announced “Just off the diving board! Mom is right here.” With this order the victory was finally won by the stubborn fearless side, and I plunged in and felt the rush of excitement. I continued to have complete happiness for about 30 minutes until I realized my family had to leave and it pertained to me that I had let an enormous hour of happiness slip from me, I had not chosen to jump off the diving board. If only I had just not afraid. If only I had let not fear and discomfort of water wage victory. If only I had been a go getter.
Most of my life I have struggled with the constant fight against the unwillingness to try new or old things that would take me out of my comfort zone. However, during the year of 2022 I have been forced to be a go-getter from applying to college, collecting scholarships, and continuing in my Christian faith. If I had not chased down a college acceptance letter; I would be once again asking a “if I had done this” question to a decision that is going to help me stronger in whatever career that I am led to. If I do not chase down a scholarship; I would be once again asking a “if I had done this” question for a chance to make the loans of college be lowered substantially. If I had not chased down faith stronger in order to encourage others; I would be once again asking a “if I had done this” question to an important passion of my life to spread the gospel and help others around me. I must be a go getter whether it is my future in education, helping the community, and developing my faith. Moever, I have learned that I can not allow the brakes of laziness, and feelings of fear and the unknown stop me from what I should be striving for. If I do allow those brakes to step in then my life will stop before the happiness, joy, and excitement of the rewording parts of life.
Therefore, there are some major steps in the year of 2023 that will only be completed if I chase after them in an unending drive that defies fear, discomfort, and laziness. Without knowing how to defy fear then I would have the skills to reach my goals then 2023. Without knowing that I must go after and go get the things that are important to me instead of letting them slide off into the past I would not seek after the things I will in 2023.
Now let us fast forward to an event in 2023 that will most likely happen where I may need to become a go getter. It may take place in the christian university I will be attending called Easter University. I have a choice of whether to join my college friends in a mission work of ministering to people on the street. Once again the two sides wage in me. One side says it will be hard, difficult, and possibly dangerous. The other declares that if I jump the diving board I will help the people around me. This time the fearless side will win since I must go after the limited chances I have to help people and better prepare myself for the world after college.