New Years Resolution by Kency

New Years Resolution by Kency - January 2016 Scholarship Essay

All throughout high school I was not the best student. I had many problems going on outside and inside the school that kept me distracted from focusing and wanting to actually do better for myself. People constantly doubting me, thinking I wasn’t good enough, that I wouldn’t graduate on time and if I did I would not make it to college. I though why even try, why even make an effort if no one that surrounds me believes in me. I was constantly led down. However, something changed when I had an emergency trip to Honduras, my native country. Last October, I had the chance to go back after 10 years of not going, I finally got the chance to see my family, meet new members, and reunited with everyone. They gave me the warmest and welcoming welcome. I felt like I truly fit in with them. When I was there that week I realized how people live there, it is a small town, where everyone knows each other. They all try to help each other out as much as they can. Although, it is poor and day by day they have to work for everything they have, even the food they will eat that day. I realized how humble they are.
I saw an interesting family that caught my attention the most. The woman had 3 kids, two of them were twins, and a little baby girl. The dad had left and it was only her with her three kids, she lived in such a small house, and they didn’t even have a bathroom. The kids had dropped out of elementary school because she could afford to buy their supplies for school. She could barely afford to buy them clothes and they only had a single pair of shoes, most of the time they went around shoeless. It was the saddest thing to see, however, just like everyone else in the town. Regardless of their economic statues, the kids were really sweet and just overall happy.
That’s when I realize how ungrateful I had been this whole time, there is people all around the world that wish they had half of the things I do. However, here I was feeling hurt about some girls in my school calling me names, and hurt about my parents not believing in me. That’s why my new year’s resolution, is to capture some of that humbleness. To focus myself on me and graduating, so I can pay it forward. To show everyone that doubted me that I did it. My goal is to go into nursing, and with help, open a little health care in the little town where my grandma lives. Visioning myself helping all the little kids that run around without shoes on, all dirty yet happy, is my motivation to get myself out of that negative shell I was in, and to want to go out and succeed.