I Once Feared My Future by Janett

I Once Feared My Future by Janett - July 2016 Scholarship Essay

Yes, I once feared my future, but I have to rewind and explain how many class discussions led to that moment. On September 11th, I attended my first day of my junior year (a week later than the usual registration date, but that's another story). It was my first day at a new school and I had managed to get through most of the day all I had to get past was 5th period, Physiology/Anatomy and 6th period, Choir. As I sprinted to my next class dropping papers along with a whole lot of sweat I hurried down the halls looking for room 508 and I finally came across a security named by everyone, Chango, who kindly walked me to my class after i was 27 minutes late. I walked into the classroom head first and all eyes turned to me as if I had called for everyone's attention. As I made my way up to the front of the class where I had located the teacher I asked, “Excuse me, are you Ms. Fisher?”
“It’s Mrs. Fisher, but yes I am and you’re late”.
“I’m really sorry, it’s my first day and I couldn't seem to find this classroom”
“Everyone else seemed to find it. Let me see your schedule” with all my might holding my tremble I handed her my schedule and I was placed in the very first seat that just happened to be 12 inches away from her. She began talking, off topic, about school-life after high school and in the back of my mind I thought, what will I do? What schools should I be applying for? What majors should I be majoring in? So many questions popped into my mind and Mrs. Fisher went on and on about her college experience and the difficulties she faced. In that moment, I blanked out and I just gave her a blank stare with widened eyes. I didn’t know that the next thing she would say would stick to me and change my perspective about my future forever. I did indeed fear my future just hoping if I would have one or would I turn out similar to my mother, didn't graduate high school and did not attend college. Would I have enough money? Or be bankrupt? And as I tuned into Mrs. Fisher’s discussion she said, “I promise you. If you don’t pay attention to your education, college will hand you just enough rope to hang yourself”. And with those very words everything came to me crystal clear. I shouldn’t fear college. I should embrace it! I should embrace my studies and the opportunities i'm handed when I pursue my education at a four-year university. That very day, my whole perspective about college opened my mind and I went home searched many schools and many majors. I want to major in the medical field. I am definitely attending a 4-year university. I owed Mrs. Fisher my gratitude for helping me realize that I shouldn't fear what's to come for me, but be proud that I have the choice to decide. I learned from Mrs. Fisher that attending a university is a privilege and I shouldn’t be fearful of my future, but be grateful that I get to have one.