Shifting With the Universe by Eavon

Shifting With the Universe by Eavon - September 2022 Scholarship Essay

The universe, the world, and the human mind share an important trait. They are changing, shifting, and never constant. Change is what determines a path and a future, but it is also change that twists the human mind.
Throughout my education, kindergarten to my senior year, I have been asked what I want to do with my life. I had been told to prepare for everything. Prepare for school, prepare for tests, prepare for my future. There is only so much one can prepare for, but some events are unpreventable. Up until my sophomore year, I thought that having my life planned out would be the best option for fabricating a desirable future. Having planned out so much, I only viewed my life going one way. I prepared for so much; however, I had not mentally prepared for the change ahead. When I moved the summer of sophomore year, change began to take control of my life. I let change ruin me, in so many ways. I watched myself change into a person that is now unrecognizable. This person was unprepared and unaware of how much of an impact change would have in her small life. What could have been two steps forward, turned out to be three steps backwards. I let myself fall into a state where everything seemed unattainable.
If I could give myself advice, I would have told her to embrace the change, and use it to her advantage. My focus was only set on the past. I used to only think about my potential in Wisconsin, and how much I had not adapted to living in Arizona. I was stuck in the past and was refusing to let the change in my life set a new path for me. Looking back, I realized that change is inevitable, there is no preventing or preparing. There are two ways to deal with change, embrace it, or refuse it. Refusing change will only entail considerable regret.
Change brings so much more to light. Although I wish I could have given myself that advice, I am happy to have learned from that experience. The ongoing struggle is something that I had never experienced before. There is no way I could have prepared for such a drastic time in my life. I asked myself “if change outweighed the good”. If I was to be asked that question a year ago, I would not hesitate with my answer. I would have said that my life had been turned upside down and that everything seemed pointless and temporary. I know now that there is much more to my belonging and that change does outweigh the good, now that I know how to approach it. I take actions to better myself. I do not refuse change in a universe that is always shifting. I am proud of who I am and what accomplishments I’ve made in regards to my situation. I still have plans for my future, and know that I will be able to form a new path to get me to where I need to be.