Dinner With Jesus by Allison

Dinner With Jesus by Allison - February 2016 Scholarship Essay

I spend everyday in the presence of God, but have never seen Him with my own eyes. I speak to Him everyday, but have never heard the sound of His voice. He is the reason for my existence, the Creator of the universe, and the only one Who knows me better than myself. I pray that one day I will be sitting alongside my Father in Heaven, even though I am unsure of where that destination might be. If I had the opportunity, I would have dinner with Jesus, the only Son of God, to experience His grace and everlasting love face to face on Earth.

Jesus- the human form of my God. The man who sacrificed His life in order to save my soul. What would I, a foolish, eighteen-year-old girl, have to say to Him? I’d probably start with, “Thank you.” These words don’t feel powerful enough to show my full gratitude, but I know He would understand. I would thank Him for the abundance of amazing people and greatness He has blessed me with on Earth, and for His unending love. I would give thanks for the times He has forgiven me for my sins and led me back to His open arms when I had nowhere else to go. For opening the gates to Heaven, giving each and every one of us everlasting life, and for the myriad of blessings we, as human beings, could never repay Him for. These acknowledgements are merely a drop in the pool of gratitude I would have to offer.

Though I feel as there’s much I’d like to say, I would certainly not spend the whole time talking. I hear His Word every Sunday at mass, but the sound of His voice would be beyond compare. I’d listen closely to the hum of His vocal chords and the way He pauses between sentences, cherishing every word that left His lips. I would accept any advice, and receive it with my full attention, peering into His glistening eyes. I’d hope He would answer some of the questions I ponder late at night, reassuring me that He hears my wandering thoughts. I’d ask about Grandma and Ms. Jones, and shed a tear when He tells me they’ve grown the most beautiful set of wings. I’d cling to every description of Heaven He imprinted in my mind, and try to fathom the elegance and beauty it holds.

With each word that rolls off his tongue, more thoughts and questions would come to mind. “Am I living out my life the way You intended?” “What does my future look like?” “How can I better myself in my actions to be more like You?” “When are You coming back to Earth?” These are a few of the many questions I crave the answers for. I’d be patient awaiting His responses, masking my anxiety as best as I could. These answers would impact the rest of my life immensely. I wholeheartedly believe my purpose in being on Earth is to live out the Word of God, and being able to hear it straight from His mouth, instead of from scriptures, would make it even more impactful. The reassurance that God fully sees who I am, and I see who He is, would strengthen my faith to a new level. I wouldn’t just hope and pray about the greatest uncertainty of life; I would experience it first hand.
I often find myself pondering the mysteries of life. How did it really all come about? Why was I put on this Earth? All questions that many people look to God for the answers to. These puzzles consume my brain, and I cannot simply produce any one answer, with merely my own understanding. My only solution is my faith. I have placed my heart, mind, and body in the hands of my Lord, and trust in Him to make my paths straight. He provides me with my daily strength, loves me unconditionally, and will never give up on me. Given the opportunity, I would no doubt take the chance to have dinner with Jesus, the only Son of God, to hear His gentle words, feel the touch of His hand, and to experience the magnitude of His everlasting love and grace face to face. This encounter would strengthen my relationship with Christ to a whole new level and make me a better person.